Fatigue.

I’m burned out. I was superwoman too many months. Too many years. I’ve wasted too much time. Loving all the wrong people. Caring what other people think. I didn’t realize that I am mortal. That my time here is limited. I want to cherish each day. Love a little more. Live a little more. Hug a little tighter. Kiss a little longer. Dance in the rain. The diagnosis is coming faster than I’d like. October 5, 2015 I may have the answers I’m looking for. Until then, I go to bed embraced in the love of my life’s arms after tucking my sweet little love into bed. I cherish my support system. I’ll take it easy. As easy as fatigue will let me. 

September 26, 2015 by diarou326 Categories: Death, Health, LifeTags: dance, diagnosis, embrace, fatigue, health, illness, life, live, love, medical, more, rain, tired Leave a comment

Lady Killer.

Very few people know my silent battles. They know nothing of the fear within me. I’m so blindingly optimistic most nights. Tonight I’m afraid. I fear death. I fear not living. I fear for my health. Not knowing isn’t the problem. I’m dead certain. It’s taking time to have someone tell me the truth and the outcome. I know all the symptoms. I know the results. I fear for my loved ones. This agony inside of me. I’m afraid of many things but this one thing I fear hearing. Hearing the diagnosis. My lady killer. 

September 25, 2015 by diarou326 Categories: Death, Health & Wellness, LifeTags: afraid, agony, anxiety, death, diagnosis, fatigue, fear, grief, health, killer, know, knowing, lady, life, living, optimism, optimistic, pain, truth Leave a comment