Cheated.

There is no single way to destroy someone’s self esteem. But having your spouse cheat on you is a devastating blow to your self esteem. You wonder to yourself what’s so much better about her that you’d do that to me? The person you vowed your life and love to. Where did I go wrong? You start to doubt yourself and your own happiness and your ability to bring joy to those around you. It somehow engrains in you the unworthiness and guilt of not being “enough.” But at this point in my life I wonder more about the cheaters than the cheated. What draws them? What makes them have zero remorse for their actions? What damaged them and killed their ability to love? In my instance the cheaters in question remain in a very unhealthy back and forth relationship. Did their mothers teach them any better? Especially HW whom knew she was having sexual relations with a married man and had no remorse after. Doesn’t she understand that if he cheated with you he can cheat on you? I guess that’s part of the problem. There’s no true closure in my case because there are too many unanswered questions. I’m a scientist by nature very curious. If anyone has any ideas let me know. Some insight into cheating would be great. For now I’m better just writing. And living my life for ME.

February 25, 2015May 28, 2015 by diarou326 Categories: GrievanceTags: cheat, cheated, cheater, cheating, divorce, done, homewrecker, husband, love, wife 2 Comments